This is where I make my big mistakes

I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
but i know that thats impossible now
& so i drink to stay warm & to kill selected memories
cause i just cant think anymore about that
or about him tonight

& i give myself three days to feel better or else i
swear ill drive right off a fucking cliff
because if i cant learn to make myself feel better
how can i expect anyone else to give a shit?

& i scream for the sunlight
or a car to take me anywhere.
just get me passed this dead and eternal snow

cause i swear that im dying
slowly, but its happening
& if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere
just take me there
just take me there

just take me there
& say & lie to me & say & lie to me & say
its gonna be alright
its gonna be alright
its gonna be alright
its gonna be alright
its gonna be alright
its gonna be alright
its gonna be alright
its gonna be alright
its gonna be alright..